Wednesday, November 26, 2008


This is my formal thanking of God during Thanksgiving:

I thank God for my life
...for what I have and what I don't have
...for beauty, aesthetic and inner
...for the beautiful earth
...for the life I have led
...for my amiable personality
...for the capacity to love and to hate
...for the ability to die when my time is up
...for my friends and teachers
...for the capacity to forgive and forget
I thank God for everything I can't remember as well.
As told by Thales Bellucci
Sincerely, Jon S.

Tuesday, November 11, 2008

Here Is a Place That Is No Place, And Here Is No Place That Is a Place

The title is the first and second lines of the poem MADHOUSE by Calvin C. Hernton. Once again I must thank Thales for writing this while I am on my electronics fast. On Thursday, I was still mentally preparing for my fast. I watched Forrest Gump because I knew wouldn't see it for a long time. It was amazing as always, but one part struck me more than usual, the part where Forrest ran from one side of the USA to the other. The running he said gave him hope and helped figure out his life. After the movie, I decided to take a walk myself. I don't run because running is for people who have places to go. So walking by myself at night, got me minorly depressed. I kept walking and then I saw my old elementary school. I decided to walk over there for no particular reason. I went on the playground and swung on the swings because those were my favorite when I was young. When I did that, I had a very spiritual experience. I "met" and "saw" young Jonathan who I believe is my spiritual core. It was a very metaphysical experience. You WOULD NOT understand. What I learned is that at heart, I am just a young child who wants to be loved. Before I left the playground, I started tearing up because I knew I would not need to go back. I left and kept walking, but I was still depressed. While I was walking some kid who knew me called to me. I think it may have been Tom Perry. That brought me out of my depression in a second. I realized right then and there that I really don't need anything else except the love and respect of my friends and hopefully girlfriend if it all works out well. After that I just walked to see how far I could go. I walked from one side of my neighborhood to the other. I walked for 2 and 1/2 hours. My feet were blue and I was tired, but it was all worth it.

As told by Thales, Sincerely
Jon S.

Wednesday, November 5, 2008

Mental Preparation

Today is Wednesday and I am mentally preparing for my electronics fast. What most people don't really know is I am punished for this whole school vacation. I am punished for actually using the computer when I wasn't supposed to. (How ironic!) I should tell you the readers why I am doing this electronics fasting. It is truly to stop this addiction i have to electronics that most kids have nowadays. It is sick how today kids would be so lost without their electronic gadgets, toys, and other crap. I am an example. I'm not as bad as other kids, but I still get anxious when I don't check my e-mail. The 2nd main reason is if i do this electronic fasting I will "cut a huge puppet string" in my life. One of the many ways my mother controls me is through these electronic "privileges". If i do this, hopefully i will gain some desperately needed freedom. After Monday Thales Bellucci will be typing my blogs for me. What i will do is write my blogs on paper and give them to him and he will just type them for me. I thank Thales from the heart of my bottom. Just kidding. Truly he is a great person to know and a good friend as well. I'll see you on the other side.

Excelsior for now!

Saturday, November 1, 2008

Whatever Happened to my Transylvania Twist?

That's from Monster Mash by Leonard Capizzi. It's officially 12:21, so its officially after Halloween. Halloween has been a weird holiday since my dad died. I used to go trick or treating with my dad with very conformist (yes I said it) and cliched costumes such as ninjas and prisoner outfits. After he died, going trick or treating was just different and it didn't feel good to go out trick or treating. Nowadays I put on funny costumes (such as my amazing rendition of a rabbi this year and my "jewdoo" doll) to see how people would react. I essentially was trying to "rock the boat." I still didn't go out for trick or treating though. I did carve a pumpkin though, which was fun. I did watch some Twilight Zone episodes in complete darkness which was eerily creepy. Its just not as much fun as it used to be.

Ciao for now